A Seven-Year-Old Asked Her Aunt If She Was Too Expensive To Keep-tantan

The dress was new, but it did not feel like a gift.

It scratched at Annie’s neck, pinched under her arms, and made a tiny ripping sound whenever she tried to sit down the way she normally sat, knees tucked under her.

Her aunt had bought it the night before from a store with fluorescent lights and metal hangers that clanged whenever someone pushed through the clearance rack.

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Annie remembered touching the sleeve because it was soft on the outside.

She did not know it would feel stiff on her skin the next day, like she had been wrapped in something meant to make other people believe she was cared for.

In the Atlanta apartment, the air smelled like cheap perfume, burnt toast, and the heat from her aunt’s flat iron.

The window over the sink was fogged at the corners.

Outside, cars rolled slowly over damp pavement, and somewhere down the walkway a dog barked twice before going quiet.

Annie stood on a towel in the middle of the kitchen while her aunt pulled a brush through her hair.

“Hold still,” her aunt said.

Annie held still.

At seven years old, she had already learned that holding still could make a bad moment pass faster.

She had learned not to reach for food until someone nodded.

She had learned not to ask whether there was more milk.

She had learned that adults could say a thing softly and still mean it like a slap.

That morning, her aunt kept checking her phone.

Every time it buzzed, her mouth tightened, and every time Annie asked where they were going, her aunt said, “You’ll see.”

Annie did not like that answer.

It was the kind of answer adults used when they had already decided something and did not want a child to get in the way of it.

The apartment was cleaner than usual.

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