Two Days After Delivery, My Parents Tried To Take My Baby-heuh

Two days after my emergency delivery, my parents walked into my hospital room and reached for my newborn.

My mother said, “You’re too unstable to raise her,” while my father opened forged consent papers.

I told the nurse to make them leave, and the scan triggered the alert he never knew I had approved.

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My voice came out so small that I was ashamed of it.

“Don’t touch her.”

It barely rose above the steady sound of the monitor beside my bed.

The room smelt of antiseptic, plastic curtains, warm milk, and tea that had gone cold in a paper cup on the table.

My whole body felt bruised from the inside.

Forty-eight hours earlier, I had been rushed through an emergency delivery after everything went wrong faster than anyone expected.

There had been too much blood.

Too many hands.

Too many clipped instructions from people trying not to frighten me while clearly being frightened themselves.

I remembered ceiling tiles, white lights, a mask near my face, and someone telling me to stay with them.

Then I remembered Lily crying.

That tiny, furious, impossible sound had pulled me back into the world.

Now she was asleep in the clear bassinet beside my bed, tucked beneath a pink blanket, her face turned slightly towards me.

Every few breaths she made a small squeak, as if even sleeping was new and difficult.

My mother, Diane, stood over her with one hand hovering at the edge of the bassinet.

She had not asked if she could touch her.

She never did ask when she believed something already belonged to her.

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