Alone In Labour, She Saw The Doctor Cry At Her Baby’s Face-Teptep

Joanna Miller came through the hospital doors alone, with rain on her coat and one hand braced beneath the heavy curve of her stomach.

The morning outside was cold enough to make the pavement shine, and the automatic doors breathed warm air over her face as she stepped inside.

She paused for only a second, not because she had changed her mind, but because she had hoped, foolishly, that someone might still appear behind her.

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No one did.

There was no husband walking too fast across the car park.

No mum fussing over a bag.

No sister waving from the entrance with flowers and a worried smile.

There was only Joanna, her small suitcase, the old grey jumper pulled tight over her belly, and nine months of learning how to keep standing when life had become very quiet.

At the desk, a nurse looked up and saw the pain on Joanna’s face before Joanna had the chance to explain it.

“Are you in labour, love?” she asked gently.

Joanna nodded, then swallowed as another contraction gripped her low and sharp.

The nurse came round the desk at once, one hand already reaching for a wheelchair.

“Is your husband on his way?”

Joanna had practised answering that question in her head.

She had imagined saying it lightly, as if the truth were not a bruise pressed under the skin.

“Yes,” she said. “He should be here soon.”

The nurse accepted the answer because kind people often do, and Joanna hated herself a little for being relieved.

It was not true.

Logan Wright had left seven months earlier, on the evening Joanna told him she was pregnant.

She still remembered the lamp being on in the corner, the kettle cooling in the kitchen, and the scan appointment card sitting between them like a document neither of them knew how to sign.

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