Mother Gave My Sisters Rooms In My House, So I Changed The Locks-heuh

My mother gave each of my three sisters a bedroom in my new house before I had spent a single night there.

She did not ask.

She did not suggest it gently over tea, or wait until I had finished unpacking, or even pretend it was a temporary arrangement.

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She simply decided that the house I had bought was family property because I had been foolish enough, in her eyes, to buy more rooms than one woman needed.

The first time I saw the place after completion, I stood in the narrow hallway with my coat still damp from the drizzle and felt something loosen in my chest.

It was not a grand house.

It was not the sort of place people write poems about.

It was a five-bedroom house with slightly tired skirting boards, a garden that needed work, a kitchen where the kettle sat beneath a cabinet that did not quite close, and a front door I had painted sage green because I had wanted one thing in my life to look calm.

To me, it was everything.

My name is Audrey Miller.

I was thirty-three when I bought it.

For ten years, I had lived as if comfort were something I could earn later.

I worked late.

I took side contracts.

I said no to holidays, no to new clothes, no to replacing furniture that was clearly giving up.

My old flat had a fridge that rattled like a lawn mower and a bathroom tap that shrieked if you turned it too far.

I used to lie awake listening to that fridge and tell myself that one day I would have a hallway wide enough to hang my coat without it brushing against the door.

One day I would have a spare room.

One day I would not have to apologise for taking up space.

When the keys were finally handed to me, I kept them in my pocket for the entire train ride home, just to feel the metal there.

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