The Handprints In Her Hospital Room Made Her Uncle Go Silent-Teptep

The first thing Uncle Ray saw was not my baby.

It was my neck.

I was sitting in a hospital bed with my newborn daughter tucked against my chest, one hand under her little head and the other curved around the blanket like I could hold the whole world together by force.

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The room smelled like bleach, warmed formula, and the stale coffee Derek had complained about for half the morning.

The monitor beside me clicked softly.

Somewhere outside the door, a cart squeaked down the hallway and a nurse laughed under her breath at something another nurse said.

Inside my room, nobody was laughing.

Uncle Ray stopped just past the doorway, and his eyes moved from Lily’s pink hospital cap to the dark handprints blooming across my throat.

The marks were not small.

They were not subtle.

They were the kind of marks a person leaves when he believes no one will ever make him explain where his hands have been.

My husband, Derek, sat in the visitor chair with one ankle crossed over his knee.

He had changed into a clean shirt after delivery because he said the first one smelled like hospital air.

His watch flashed every time he moved.

His father, Arthur, stood near the sink in a tailored suit, silver hair combed back, shoulders squared like a man posing for a courtroom portrait.

Neither of them looked frightened when Ray walked in.

That was their first mistake.

“Don’t make that face, Ray,” Derek said.

His voice had that lazy, amused edge he used whenever he wanted me to feel small in front of someone else.

“She got hysterical.”

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